my dad was supposed to be the person who will come on this day. but since he got work in Pahang on Wednesday, i knew that i have to go back on my own. again. yeah i was really hope he could come for this day. i wanted to show my not so-good result from the hardwork i cherished every night just for this mid-term exam. i know you're really hoping grade A for my addmath. even if you couldn't tell by your words, but i could tell from your looks. everytime you fetch me from the school, you'll always ask the same question - how was your addmath, Ila ? but so far i could just achieved only grade B. i know, i made a lot of careless mistakes -.-' if i answered this, orang lain gagal lah ayah. you'll quickly said, kenape nak bezakan dengan orang lain ? jangan tengok orang lain. tengok diri sendiri. and he will always advice me to recite the holy quran often, never leave your solat and what's the most, belajar rajin-rajin. look at your two big sisters and your cousins. don't you feel envious with them ? got a chance to study overseas, got new experieces there, learn new languages and many more.
and recently, my dad always remind me to keep it up on my studies and yeah Japan. i really want to go there if i get a chance. but deeply in my heart, i don't know if i can really do more better than before. i need someone to support my back and in everything i do. besides, i've gone wild at hostel. i've became more worse than before. heh i don't know how to describe myself well. and things always get out of my hand. like i said, i really need my friends by my side to cheer me up every sick morning i endure and sing me a song every lonely night i rely. menyampah lah ayat ni -.-' okay there's only left few days before the July exam on the first August. you should expect TRIAL SPM after that, my dear. i'm shaking rite now. just pray for my success okay ? c: